Lesson about Patience

Stage I.

A : When is the cut-off period of patience, B?
B : We are the one who limit it. It depends on when you want or don't want to. What is it?
A : Just saying. Sometimes I'm afraid that being patience on "something" is interpreted in a wrong way by C. Like cold/ ignorant / fool. Hahaha. While actually, maybe it's a kind of positive thinking. But, my fear is haunting, I sometimes afraid that I am one of those three.
B : You can't just let something bad or wrong happened. If you do, you are one of those three. That is not patience, A. You have to make your best efforts regarding those unpleasant things, it's up to you how.
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Stage II.
B : What do you feel about “that something”? Do you hate it? Dislike it?
A : Not really. Flat. But I know it isn't right.
B : Have you told C?
A : Nope. I haven't. It didn't do any harm to me so I don't do anything.
B : But you know it isn't right? And yet, you still are in silence. Well, that is selfish and "kikir" if I may say.
A : Astaghfirullahaladzim. Yeah, you're right, B.
B : =)
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Stage III.

B : I wonder, why bother about “that something” C does?
A : Of course, it is because I love C.
B : Do you think C feel the same way too?
A : That, I am sure.
B : Amin. Good. Well, then I can assume that your "do-nothing" is because of your positive thinking and your patience, then.
A : I never really care whether C feel the same way/doesn't. My best friend taught me a lot about sincerity. And I know that is what I feel to C like. And it is regardless whether C pays me in return.
B : Awww, so sweet.
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Stage IV.
A : But.. Actually, there are other things.
B : What?
A : I'm not really honest to you. I do feel sad about “that something” but it always happens every time I pray.
B : Why are you sad?
A : That something is unpleasant to me.
B : Well, so it's not that "flat", huh?
A : I hope it's really what you call "tawakal", relying our heart to Kemahakuasaan-Nya, KeMahaadilan-Nya, etc.
B : true but.. after making those best efforts I said earlier. Have you made any?
A : So, my patience does not count as an effort? :D
B : It's counted but are you sure it's the best thing that you can do? Because after the best efforts, then I agree it is tawakal.

*silence for a minute*
A : Subhanallah. How lovely our religion is, B.
B : Indeed. Alhamdulillah Wala ilahaillAllaah Allahuakbar =)
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love,
Marissa.