Hypochondria Part.III

Sept 20, 2006

I feel the distance is growing between us. Even in my heart, I know I couldn’t bear to be like this. I hear they say that it’s harder for the person who is left behind, and it’s true. Though, I’m not sure that he’s ever stayed or even left but what I am sure is we’re gravitating in different directions. He seems further from everything in my life. We’re on the same crowd but we never hear any shout. Even when I was being that close, the chance flew out of our reach. This situation has been one kind of hellest thing for now…

Eddie Vedder says that sorrow grows bigger where the sorrow’s denied. Maybe I deny this feeling too much. Think of it too hard. But, when will this feeling lose its power on me? I don’t feel any increasing though I realize that I’ve been believing something that is never going to happen. Or Maybe this thing is too huge for me,, it’s been suppressed me since that goodbye. Though I promise myself to never let my heart controlling my mind, I’ve failed. I cannot live like this anymore. I need to be healed.

Shiver
By: Coldplay

So I look in your direction but you pay me no attention, do you?
I know you don't listen to me 'cos you say you see straight through me, don't you?

But on and on from the moment I wake to the moment I sleep
I'll be there by your side just you try and stop me
I'll be waiting in line just to see if you care
Did you want me to change? Well I'd change for good
And I want you to know that you'll always get your way
I wanted to say...

Don't you shiver?
Singing loud and clear
I'll always be waiting for you

So you know how much I need youbut you never even see me, do you?
And is this my final chance of getting you?

But on and on from the moment I wake to the moment I sleep
I'll be there by your sidejust you try and stop me
I'll be waiting in linejust to see if you care
Did you want me to change? Well I'd change for good
And I want you to know that you'll always get your way
I wanted to say...

Don't you shiver? Don't you shiver? I sing it loud and clear
I'll always be waiting for you
I'll always be waiting for you
I'll always be waiting for you
I'll always be waiting for you
for you, I will always be waiting

And it's you I see but you don't see me
And it's you I hear so loud and so clear
I sing it loud, and clear
And I'll always be waiting for you

So I look in your direction but you pay me no attention
And you know how much I need you but you never even see me



May the force be with me...


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