Hypochondria Part.IV

He knew my name!!! Thank God,, I never thought he did after all we’d been through and after the distance has made us apart for so long. All this time, I do not know that he did, I never told him, he never asked me, and simply…we never got there before. I always thought that he didn’t notice me at all, but things that I heard from his junior so shocked me that I couldn’t stand straight that time. I was so happy that I forgot it didn’t mean anything (damn…why do I always be so unoptimistic on everything about him?!).

We have many differences on the way we see things in life (perhaps). One of our big difference is he seems so realistic while I often have my heart decide something. Everything he does is beautiful, everything he does is so right. Here, I can only count the days since the last time we met. If we love somebody could we be this wrong?

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Sorry…
I'm feeling so cold when writing this plot. Get nothin’ to warm me. Should I get my blanket first? Uh, I don’t think so, I just have to turn on the jukebox (Hey Jude by the Beatles… and now In A Rush by Blackstreet—I always like songs that can describe what I feel. Oh no…Now it’s Love Fool by the Cardigans!). Should I turn it off? No, its lyrics really suit to this plight. Or maybe the screaming of this heart?!
Fiuh,,don’t have any idea about it
—God…this song’s really bothering…

“…maybe there is nothing that I can do to make you “do”… So I cry, and I pray, and I beg…Love me, love me say that you love me. Fool me, fool me, go on and fool me. Love me, love me, pretend that you love me…I can care about anything but you…”

—S**t! STOP that sound!

“…I don’t care if you really care as long as you don’t go…”

—Fast Forward once...
twice…
I don’t know how many times I push the FF button!

(What the f**k they say by Steven and d Coconut treez)

Fiuh…Gotta breathe now…


May the force be with me…


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