Ensure=Unsure.

October 5th, 2007.
My room [03:00],

People,
Lately, I’ve been wondering many things I done since then. Is this what I want? Is this what I’ve been fighting for? And is this what I’ve been praying for?
I hope so.
I’ve just talked with my best friend about something that—unintendedly—seems happen to everyone. How could people do many things that are out of their mind just to have what they want? And it all comes down to a word named possession. Possession [n]; Possessive [adj] is a part of human feeling, which cannot be denied—it is. Possessive is a tendency of being stick with something you own; it is an implementation of belonging sense of yours.
However, based on my conversation with my best friend, I conclude that possessive is an ambivalent feeling. When you own something, possession is a margin of act. If you do it for anticipating any threats, disturbance, or harm which could cause you losing your ownership. In other words, possessive is allowed for sustaining integrity. But sometimes, possessive come out from an extreme-illogical mind that finally creates suspicion in something that is—actually—already certain *Hmm..Miris*. And your possession becomes a reason for yourself to ensure your integrity.
When you feel unsure about your own integrity; then how can you sustain it? What is worse is you turn into something that you’re not just to do it. If you have been so; I suggest—no, no, I demand—you to ask you to wake up. It is useless if you are doubting something which is certain, why should you?! Your suspicion will only make yourself tired; and exhausted at the end. And when you’re too busy to ensure yourself, then you forget to sustain it; then simply you’ll lose it. And it’s been already beyond your control because you don’t have any faith in yourself in owning it; why should it’s owned by you for any longer then?
I wish that I’m not being something that I am not just to ensure myself that I possess what is already mine.

Duniaaa.
Icha just has a ‘renaissance’ of her recent-dead-end days after her significant secret-conversation with her best friend. Now, she believes that she will find a brighter day.
She does wish you all get your own renaissance too so you’ll find a brighter day.
Find them with her, Duniaaa…


May the force be with you.
[IchaUniquelyFascinating]