No More Noise [I wish]

July 23rd, 2007

There have only been a couple of times in my life when I felt really, truly, missing something. But never, in my entire life, had I felt worse than I had these days. Why did you have to make me sound like such a fool? You didn’t have to LAUGH so hard at what was a perfectly reasonable MISTAKE I’ve done. I squirm with regret and embarrassment every time I think about all of the dead air line between us lately. This predicament has been drowning me into my own weakness. I’d been spending my two weeks staring at my screen. Phew, my weakness reached its peak when I got your reply. And you know what that alone was enough to bring tears to the eyes of someone who’s been missing any kind of conversation with you. I did hope that you did have the decency to say that it was A BIT same feeling as mine you also felt. But I was only dreaming and suddenly I began to feel foolish. All men are the same [I thought bitterly]; you can’t trust any of them [skeptic... Ho3...]. I decided not to think about it and to spend my time with my study and friends. I realized how very little I had done so far these days. All I had done was to sit and sulk and wait to hear anything from you, you know! I had wasted nearly two whole weeks. I peered out of the window from my bedroom and found to my amazement as if it wasn’t raining anymore. After pondering what to do, I began to write this blog. Maybe talking about you too much wasn’t such a good idea after all. Sigh...

Damn, why my last is thought that I still want it so bad though it’s gonna be dead air more than ever.